Because there's something in me that I want to kill.
Fine.
17.7.11 20:26
Don't tell me that you're fine.
Are you really
F ucked up
I nsecure
N eurotic
E motional
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Brusque
3.7.11 07:17
What drives me is where I put my heart into.
I appear nonchalant in a bid to enshroud the almost polar attitude of mine - that uncontrolled passion being kept under control kind of thing. There can be little motivation as widely seen in some tasks, so I would create a reward for myself (and hopefully for others as well) after achieving the desired results. Kind of like a closeted superhero-wannabe, but not (Yes, I do spend time at the back of the stage). I can't be a superhero anyways. I've a passion to see things happen; it fills my bountiful jar of curiosity. To see things happen, I have to either make it happen or wait and see. I prefer the former, yet the latter will do just as well.
What drives me is where I put my heart into, and I seem to toss my heart around and into many affairs - sometimes illicit, but legitimate in unwashed sentiency. My proven track record has been accepted, but I'd been unable to assure because I suck at persuasion. I suck at persuading people to join my conquests. I have to change my "Heh, Let's go make this happen with or without help" mindset as I'd been sidelining the very people who wanted to be a part of, instead of apart from it.
Bottom line, I make things happen. Not that convincing, am I?